Tomorrow I will have left behind half a century. I am feeling....old....confused...weird.
Life IS too short!
I had a good childhood. I was loved, taken very good care of and protected. My parents were the best and I am so thankful for having them as my parents. My dad passed away, when I was only 27 and he was only 54. Thank God mom is still around. My northern star...
I have a wonderful sister. She is smart, witty, funny, a bit crazy and very loving although she does not like to show it. I am so thankful for her and wishing her stable health and a long, happy life. She had been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease couple of years ago and I am worried about her health but I am praying and hoping for the best. I love her more than anyone can imagine.
I have some amazing friends and I am so thankful for having them.
I have had relationships which made me feel happy only for a while. I do not know it it was me, or them, or my poor choices, or their poor choices but, none of them worked. I finally gave it all up in my early thirties and decided that I would be better off alone.
Since, I do not feel lonely and spend time by myself quiet satisfactorily (is that a word?), I haven't regretted my decision.
Financially, I did well. If I had known, what I know now in my youth, I could have done things in a better manner but, even now at the brink of being 50, I am very close to financial freedom.
I think life is a gift and we must make the best of it. I am thankful for my life and ready to embrace what it will bring in the next half a century.