He was a quick witted person and was very fond of joking. He was a very loving father but he was excessively protective and he was a worrier. Growing up, I had found those traits difficult to deal with. I usually think, that is why he passed at such a young age. He was always terribly afraid that, he would not be able to cope with his mother's passing. My grandma outlived him by 7 years. He was afraid that his brother would kill himself because of alcoholism. He did and everybody dealt with it including my grandma who outlived my uncle by 3 years.
He died on February 20th. So, the time between his birthday and his death day is especially tough on me. Oh, and Father's Day is the worst.
I am turning 50 this year and as I approach the age he died, I tend to stop and reflect back on things more often.
My heart is heavy these days...
Thank you Jean. I love the idea of a balloon. Now, when I see a honeybee, I will think of you and your father...
ReplyDeleteWhile I am still fortunate to have my dad (he will turn 89 in a few weeks), my mom passed away 3 years ago. I don't care how old a person becomes, you never stop missing your parents. Have you ever read any of the 'God Winks' books? If not, they are worthy of a read. Hugs as you navigate this difficult time of year. Lucy
ReplyDeleteThanks Lucy. I wish your dad a healthy and happy life.
DeleteI will check out those books.