On the Fast Track

Life has been very stressful, busy and fast lately. I have been gaining weight because, I was burying my feelings in carbs. I made a bargain with mom. She will come and stay with me for a long time and I will eat only what she serves me. She had been feeling lonely for quiet a while so, she agreed.

Not a single day passes by that I do not question whether I should keep on working here or not. It is not the load of work but rather, the constant turmoil created by the new CEO. He has never worked as a CEO before and has the attention span of a three year old. Completely lacks strategic thinking. This week, I am feeling especially drained. It feels like my life energy is being sucked by Death eaters of Harry Potter.

I constantly remind myself to be patient.

On a frugal note; I will soon be the proud owner of a second hand threadmill at no cost. I have always wanted one but did not want to pay a lot of money for it. My ex-boss did not want to take home his when he sold the company and I asked him if I can have it. So, hopefully next week or so, it will be delivered to my apartment.

I am also going to give up the Studio Apartment by the end of April. The new office will be closer to the bridge and I can commute from my primary residence. Besides,I do not even know how long I will be working at this Zoo. I have tremendous trouble sleeping at the place anyway. Some significant savings there too. I am so glad. Maintaining two places was difficult. Initally, it was worthwhile but lately no more. Especially after I have found out that, part of my insomnia is due to the noisy place.

Today I am in Ankara at our office there. In about an hour, I will go see my eye doctor and then meet two babyhood friends over a cup of coffee.

Tomorrow, I have to be at the airport at 7 a.m. to meet my sister who will be flying in just for the day to get her scars checked and stitches removed after mole removal surgery. She had three moles on her face that looked pretty ugly. I will get an injection for my back pain as she deals with her own doctor. Then, we will have a Girls day out with mom.

On Sunday, I am heading back with mom to Istanbul. So, not much resting this weekend but that's OK.

What are your weekend plans?

Reminders to Self

Sometimes I forget what is important in life. I get caught up in life's worries such as work related stuff and forget to focus on the really important things.

Here is my List:

- Self-health,
- Family
- Financially Independent Future

Of these three, I somehow pay attention to Family the most but lately I have been ignoring my health by gaining weight as a result of eating out and eating unhealthy food which also hurt my budget which in turn hurts my projected Financial Independence Day. These indirectly affect my relationship with my family too.

I know I eat unhealthy stuff when I am stressed. This drives me into an insane vicious circle where I get stressed and eat and gain weight and get stressed even further. So, as of today, I am stopping that. My back hurts which makes me impossible to walk. I have to go get a shot and will do that this week.

I cannot believe how fast the days go by but I am not sure whether it is a good thing or not.

Decision Making and Responsibility: Out with the Old, In With the New

I am being buried under loads of work lately. On top of that, everybody is asking me everything.

I am so tired of having to answer all questions.

- The lawnmover is broken. What should we do?
- Get it fixed if fixing costs below such and such amount.

- We shall be letting this person go. What should we do?
-Ask the lawyer.
- The lawyaer says this and that. How should we proceed?
- Do this and that.

- May I leave ten minutes early?
- Yes.

- So and so has worked all night, shall I give him the day off?
- Yesss! Sure! (Or rather no, make him work like a slave so that he finally leaves the company and sues our artses off).

All day long I probably answer 100 questions 95 of which are plain simple or dumb. I simply cannot concentrate.

And no, they are not asking me all the time just because they look up to me or they value my opinion or they find me reliable. They are asking because they do not want to take on the responsibility associated with decision making.

Today, I stayed home to catch up on my work in silence. Thankfully, I only got 20 calls or so.

Cannot Believe February is Over!

Life is on the fast track lately. The second month of the New Year is gone! Pooof! Just like that! Wow! When did that happen?

Yesterday we had our first Board meeting and it went well.

I have so much to do in the upcoming months, I am sure, the year will be over before I can realize it.

Today, I had to take care of a gazillion little things and thankfully, I am done with all those small tasks. Now I can concentrate on some projects.

I have been ignoring my weight. That's not good. I want to get back on track a.s.a.p.

There is a facebook group I belong to. There had been calls for help for two school libraries and one for our soldiers fighting terrorists in the South.  I bought books online and also from second hand shops to send to the schools. My second box has been sent. I have another box of books to be sent to High School Students. I am waiting for instructions as to where to send it.

I have also sent 30 care packages to our brave soldiers. I selected undergarments and socks to be sent. Other people will be sending different items such as packaged foods and etc.

Now, I am looking forward to Spring and moving to the new office.