On the Fast Track

Life has been very stressful, busy and fast lately. I have been gaining weight because, I was burying my feelings in carbs. I made a bargain with mom. She will come and stay with me for a long time and I will eat only what she serves me. She had been feeling lonely for quiet a while so, she agreed.

Not a single day passes by that I do not question whether I should keep on working here or not. It is not the load of work but rather, the constant turmoil created by the new CEO. He has never worked as a CEO before and has the attention span of a three year old. Completely lacks strategic thinking. This week, I am feeling especially drained. It feels like my life energy is being sucked by Death eaters of Harry Potter.

I constantly remind myself to be patient.

On a frugal note; I will soon be the proud owner of a second hand threadmill at no cost. I have always wanted one but did not want to pay a lot of money for it. My ex-boss did not want to take home his when he sold the company and I asked him if I can have it. So, hopefully next week or so, it will be delivered to my apartment.

I am also going to give up the Studio Apartment by the end of April. The new office will be closer to the bridge and I can commute from my primary residence. Besides,I do not even know how long I will be working at this Zoo. I have tremendous trouble sleeping at the place anyway. Some significant savings there too. I am so glad. Maintaining two places was difficult. Initally, it was worthwhile but lately no more. Especially after I have found out that, part of my insomnia is due to the noisy place.

Today I am in Ankara at our office there. In about an hour, I will go see my eye doctor and then meet two babyhood friends over a cup of coffee.

Tomorrow, I have to be at the airport at 7 a.m. to meet my sister who will be flying in just for the day to get her scars checked and stitches removed after mole removal surgery. She had three moles on her face that looked pretty ugly. I will get an injection for my back pain as she deals with her own doctor. Then, we will have a Girls day out with mom.

On Sunday, I am heading back with mom to Istanbul. So, not much resting this weekend but that's OK.

What are your weekend plans?

Tried something for Insomnia: 432 Hz music

Yesterday night, I decided to try a YouTube Meditation technique to put myself to sleep. The first video I listened to was about relaxing and had very low background music. A lady was almost whispering techniques to relax. It helped me get a bit sleepy but not so much. So, I switched to an Irish music video. I probably fell asleep within 15 minutes. Mind you, I was not watching those videos. I was just listening to them.

The important thing was I read somewhere that 432 Hz music is better for the body and the soul. It may be a myth. However, on reading that, I looked for 432  Hz.music and found meditative videos and used them.

They also say, some people enjoy benefits of 528 Hz music as well. 

I do not mind the mythical hypotheses about these two frequencies. Whatever floats my boat i.e. puts me to sleep, is OK. If there are true healing powers associated with these, fine. Icing on the cake.

I enjoy Celtic music and American Native Music anyhow, so, I will keep on using them to get to sleep.

I also checked my sleep pattern and found out that I had at least two solid hours of deep sleep. That truly is great because, I was not getting any deep sleep lately. 

I will keep on experimenting.