Decisions

 Last couple of weeks, I have realized that I have been depressed and I need professional help. 

You may recall that I had been stressed by the part-time gig and that I wanted out. A few unfortunate things occurred and I felt compelled to give my friend some more time to find a proper replacement. However, she did not act on it as fast as I wanted, perhaps due to her workload.

Last week, she was very excited about a new prospect and asked for my help in putting together a proposal. She also sought help of another mutual friend. Well, we helped her put together a proposal and when she suggested the roles she thought we would take, I made it clear that I would not take part in this project. The mutual friend also told her that this was a full-time job and that she would not commit to it. I could sense that my business owner friend was bummed.

First and foremost, she is trying to sell something she does not have: 7 hiring consultants. If she signs an agreement and hires 7 people, that is a huge risk especially if one of her invoices do not get paid on time. It would pose a serious cash flow problem.

So, I suggested her to sell what she actually has: Her experience and her database. She was reluctant at first but apparently, she talked about this with the prospective customer and they loved the idea. Meanwhile our mutual friend called me and I told her about my idea and how it flew with the customer. She laughed and told me, my friend called her as well and talked about it as if it was her own idea and how well it was received. Lol! I am not angry. I don't care as long as I can be out of this a.s.a.p.

As for the positions I am responsible for, it looks like one will be filled by the Customer and that's OK. It has been almost 5 months and they did not like any of the people I have sent them. 

The other may be closed if they finally decide to make an offer to my candidate and if he accepts it.

So, I may be done by the end of this month after all. I also made it very clear that, I will not be taking on new work. She is still trying to convince me that this is a good business. I told her that it may be but, not for me. Can I be more clear? She acts disappointed but, I have told her that I would not hang her out to dry and that she should find somebody else, weeks ago. She should have.

Meanwhile, I have decided to talk to a professional for my anxiety issues and depression. I want to focus on myself and get better. I need to sleep better, eat better, exercise, read and spend time with family. 

Today I did loads of laundry that I had been ignoring for a while and cleaned my kitchen. I also started making my plans for April, May and early June.