I am Tired

I am very very tired of everything. I just need a giant "Me Time" away from home, from phones, from Internet, from anything and everything I know.

Have you ever felt this way?

Of course, there is no way I can get away from it all just like that.

What to do? What to do?

Life Style Inflation

A friend of mine just got a raise recently. Apparently some people at her job left for a competing company and in order to prevent her from leaving too, her bosses upped her salary. Talk about manageral skills. Whatever... She had been waiting for a raise for a long time so, she was very excited.

On Sunday, over coffee, she told me how she was planning to put her money to "good use". She is planning to go to the hair salon every two weeks instead of once a month now because she is "oh so tired about not being able to look her best. It would be great if she could go on a weekly basis". She also has been dreaming about adding new pieces to her wardrobe. (Before the sale season? No way in my book!)

I asked her if she did not have the raise, would she be looking for a better paying job. She said no. She feels comfortable where she is and she thinks the people who left are in for a rude awakening once they settle in their new firm.

I asked her what her future plans are with the extra money. She laughed and said "What? spend it of course!" I told her wouldn't it be better if she used at least part of it to increase her savings. After all, if the recent changes weren't made, she would be getting her old salary anyway. Then she told me she did not have a savings account.

Wait a minute!

This woman is 42 years old and she has no savings in her name whatsoever. Every month, she is taking some money off her salary and giving the rest to her husband which is a constant cause of friction between them. She has no idea if he is spending all their money, investing or saving or whatever. Totally clueless! I hope their marriage last till death do them part. Oh boy!

It is not my business to teach or preach people about how to use their money and this friend is especially a person I would not try convincing on anything. I just made a casual comment that I like to have a savings account and ended the subject there.

Remembering Him with Pride, Respect and Love

79 years ago today, the founder of modern Turkey, a true leader, a revolutionary, a great military mind Mustafa Kemal Ataturk passed away. 

Uh Oh! Half a day at the Hospital

This morning I had a 9:30 appointment with the cardiologist and a 10:30 with the eye doctor. I figured, I would be out of there by 11:00 a.m. So wrong!

First I saw the cardiologist and told her about my high blood pressure and the stress in my life lately. She asked for a blood test, gave me an ambulator to take my BP every half hour during the day and every hour at night. I had en eco-cardiogram and an ultrasound.

I told the eye doctor that lately I was "feeling" my left eye and sometimes there is a bit of  a cloudiness and a small pain which did not last very long at all. She tested my eye blood pressure and administered some more tests. She prescribed a blood pressure drop for my left eye.

It was past noon when I was finally out of the hospital. Yikes!

Getting old!

Just rested

Over the weekend I did nothing but just rest.I could not believe the amount of sleep I got. I slept and slept. It did me good though. I feel a whole lot better. I think rest was the main cure to my head cold.

I hope this will be a good week. I am going to Ankara on Wednesday both for work and to see mom and the rest of my family. My sister and BIL will be coming for the weekend. My uncle is going to be there as well. This will probably be our last get together before the New Year's Eve.

Last year everyone was at home alone. This year I hope the family will be together.

Stress and weekend plans

I am not feeling stress at the moment at all but, all that has been happening around me must be getting to me somehow.

I am a high blood pressure patient. Despite the fact that I have been taking my prescribed medicine diligently, I started experiencing elevated levels of HBP.

I made an appointment with my doctor next week.

I keep saying I am not feeling stress but when I sit down and think about it; loss of our beloved colleague, the due diligence and the closing of the quarter are all causes of stress.

Today I am at my primary residence and the cleaning lady has come. I rested all day long sleeping most of the time. I am not feeling the tension today and my head cold is getting better.

I need to go buy myself some good pillows. I must give away three old ones and get new ones. Two for myself for both homes and one for my guest bed. Checked all the pillows at home and did some research online and pretty much determined what I would like to get but I must see them in person. Since I am very allergic, my pillows must be washable in hot water. Mom uses the guest bed the most and she prefers cotton pillows. Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to drag myself out of the bed and have a somewhat normal day.

I have decided to grab a large trash bag and fill it with random stuff in drawers and medicine cabinet. I know I have some creams and what not that definitely need to be thrown away. I was matching some minimalists the other night and although I cannot become a minimalist, I can throw out what I do not need and minimize clutter.

That is all that I have planned for the weekend. If I can manage more that will be icing on the cake.

The Assesment is OVER! YAY!

Yesterday, I walked in the assesment center at 9:20 precisely 10 minutes before my appointment. I was greeted by some nice young ladies who brought me cofee, water and made me comfortable.

First I was given a case study where I had to come up with a day's schedue as a pretend CEO. I had to delegate tasks, postpone tasks and take care of some personally. That was an easy exercise for me.

Next, I was given another case that I needed to study to deliver a Go-to-Market Strategy for a pretend firm as a pretend consultant. That was somewhat more difficult.

After that, I had a role-playing session with a person where I was the boss and she was a difficult employee.

After all these, we had lunch and then the lady in charge gave me THE FEEDBACK. She congratulated me for my competence level. She told me, that was beyond any expectation. I guess the average must be so poor that I, quiet a normal being is treated as such. I am 50 and I have been in the workforce for 29 years. I am supposed to be competent at what I do. It is not an extraordinary thing.

She also told me I had such an analytical mind that I lack EQ. My EQ is supposedly below the average. She told me that I neither read my own feelings nor others' feelings. And I am like what's got feelings to do with all this? Lol! Come to think of it, yeah I do act out of logic.

So, apparently, I have to work on my EQ.

Thank God this is over!